Waiting by the phone.. to remind me i'm still here.

Katie.

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 22:41:18 GMT

Wow.. Katie. I love this girl so much. I know she'll always be there for me.. be my friend.. I don't know why I was so blind before.. how could I have thought this sweet girl was that bitch, Meela? Turns out Meela spread an awful rumour about me hating Katie, and I was just being nice to her because I felt bad for her, or something like that. Meela, if your reading this, fuck you. I don't need you telling one of my best friends this shit, making her feel horrible. So go and crawl in your little godamn hole and stay away from me and Katie. >=/

Now that thats out.. The nice Kirsty is back. =P But she has nothing else to say, really..

LYLAS KATIE!!!

<333 Kirsty

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 21:13:24 GMT

My "Kirsty at her fullest" day hasnt been going so well..

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 21:13:05 GMT

Thank you to everyone who replied to my post before this one. It means a lot to me that you all care so much about me. :) -hugs everyone-

Okayy. Uh. O_o I'm feeling better... i'll post some pictures I took of myself later. xD

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 21:20:37 GMT

I'm just so..so.. I'm not sure how to describe it. Lost, I guess. That must be the word for it. I'm going back to that long time ago. That terrible night.. the one bestest friend i've had, who now i've hurt. AGAIN. How could this happen? I deserve all I get, I guess. She won't forgive me. And I don't think I deserve to be forgiven, either. But I've gone through a lot of pain these last few days.. missing her. Not talking to her. But I suppose I must move on if she won't forgive me. Like I said, I don't deserve to be forgiven. I really don't.

I'm not talking to anyone right now on AIM.. I don't feel like anonymously cussing anyone out for the moment. I've been doing that a lot lately.. especially with my parents. All of a sudden, out of the blue, I just burst out at them. I start yelling for no apparent reason. It scares me. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.. but I have a feeling i'm going to find out soon. And I don't think i'm going to like it.

Anyway.. i've been noticing that i've been on a boy craze for quite a while. I'm also noticing its all I've been talking about. Its weird. I guess its a part of growing up? Anyway, i've given it a rest for a while. I figured, hey, it's time now to start focusing my attention on my friends, instead of boys. I feel like im giving my friends less and less attention, falling away from them all. So yeah.. i'm going to start caring for them more. Being there for them more. I think thats what most of them need right now.. or at least one wonderful friend right now. She needs comfort and support right now.. and shes suffering. She gets worse and worse every day. I want to help her so badly, but I don't know how. So i'll just listen.

Ahh.. thats all I have to say for my little rant for today. I'll write again later. Cheers.

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 00:27:06 GMT

(Click here..)

I've gone Friends Only.

Want in, if you're not already? Follow these rules, and MAYBE I will allow it..

1. Don't SPAM my journal with crap and stuff.. its annoying. O_o

2. If you have something to say, say something nice.

3. AT LEAST comment GOOD things on SOME of my entries..?

Yeah.. thats really it. Nothing too hard. All you have to do now (If you agree with the rules) is post a comment on this post, and give me at least ONE REASON why I should let you in. Now go comment! :3

Cheers,

Kirsty

EDIT: Ah sorry.. I meant the entries BEFORE this one would all be friends only.. the ones before that I felt were too private. I see i've confused some of you.. sorry about that! O_o